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About Me Member Shadow Deviant bloodliesFemale/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 3 Years
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It was only fantasy

Sat Aug 11, 2007, 8:08 AM
  • Mood: Agony
  • Listening to: the little voice inside
  • Reading: nothing.
  • Watching: the pain.
  • Playing: with the scissors.
  • Eating: nothing.
  • Drinking: nothing
It was only fantasy to think that i deserved an ounce of happiness. To think, "you've been through shit, its ok to smile once in a while" But no. today, reality has dawned. I've been told the truth, been given a lie. a whore, a lying bitch. I am. I suppose. I never wanted anything to go wrong. I just wanted to smile, and be like the rest, to laugh, to play, to tease, to be.... happy. I was wrong to think I would deserve such wish. He makes me smile, he makes me want to live, to breath and laugh.... but, maybe, its not right anymore. what am i going to do? I just wanted to be with him. I can't believe i dared to smile. Dared to enjoy life, dared to be happy. Yesterday, must have been a dream. No whore like me is worth the time, and the effort. Why me? why the whore? it was only a fantasy to be happy. It was only a book, a lie, and nightmare. Now, reality has set in, and I'm no longer. To find the new me..... where to go, who to see, who to corrupt?

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Devious Info

  • Current Residence: In the middle of nowhere; Shohola, Pa
  • Interests: Reading and writing and listening to music. Just to name a few.
  • Favourite movie: I'd have to say Pearl Harbor, Corpse Bride, Edward Scissor Hands and horror Im a hopless romati
  • Favourite band or musician: Evanescence
  • Favourite genre of music: anything: except rap
  • Favourite artist: Amy Brown
  • Favourite poet or writer: Gail Tsukiyama
  • Favourite photographer: My dad: Cait. <3
  • Favourite style of art: I seem to favor black and whites and 3-D art.
  • Operating System: XP
  • MP3 player of choice: Ipod video.
  • Shell of choice: I like the abandoned Sea shells. ^.^
  • Wallpaper of choice: Sleep Away Dream
  • Skin of choice: Eclipse
  • Favourite game: ........ eh none.
  • Favourite gaming platform: PS2
  • Favourite cartoon character: Dark, Tomoyo, Miroku, Scott, Rogue, and Kagome.
  • Personal Quote: "I'm going to bite you, hard."
  • Tools of the Trade: Computer, Mind, and Books.

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:iconsk3lingt0n:
Hey El Belle! How's life?

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:icondaydreamer252:
Thankies for the fave! :3

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:iconeviltt:
Thanks for the fave!

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:iconl-neko-fan:
thnk you veeery much for the fav of my fairyyyy!!! >w<
i'm veery glad that you liked it!!!! :hug:

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Dare ni mo jamasaseru wake ni wa ikanai kara ··~ :sing:
:iconsk3lingt0n:
Ellie, Ellie, bo, Bellie. Fe fi fo Fellie. Me mi mo Mellie.
Ellie!
Nina loves you and your gallery! :glomp:

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I can laugh harder than you can fuck.
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I know someone who knows you so I watch you.

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:iconrockthedead:
Yay!!! you put more stuff up... lol
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MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!
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:gallery:~

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Happy Halloween!!! ^__^

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